[[*happy three friends]]

Monday, August 10, 2009

[[special post.]]

hmm...

this is the first post by me, so must make it nice. hehe.

firstly i just dont understand...why this has to happen 2 days before my birthday..

it just ruins everything.

but I guess God has his own plans for me eh?

everything happens for a reason..

and maybe this reason was to prevent us from being togehter?

yeah i should jut try to accept that.

i cant accept it at all.

no matter how hard i try, i just cant forget.

the other thing that makes me so pissed is that it was only 2 days till i said yes.

now i have to just give up everything?

yeah. i should totally stop moaning about it.

stop being such a cry baby, stop it stop it stop it!

JUST GET ME OUT OF THIS MAD HOUSE.

GET ME OUT OF THIS SHIT.

i should totally stop wallowing in self pity .

yes annabel your a sick bastard, a total maniac.

i dont even know why im here for.

rebound after rebound.

when will it ever end?

im sorry for screaming at you.

sorry for everything.

i dont want this to happen either.

but we have got no choice do we?

yeah . none at all .

so stop moaning.

get yourself out.

yes.

get myself out.

but how?

every fucking day i feel so guilty.

when my parents treat me nicely.

even when they smile.

when everyone smiles at me

i feel like screaming.

stop fucking smiling at me

i dont deserve your niceness.

im not your daughter.

neither am i your friend.

im a fucking bitch.

yes thats what i am.

a slut, a prostitute.

i dont even know if you will see this, you moron, one thing i want to tell you.

i dont regret.

i wont forget.

neither will i forgive you, or myself.

for all of this, is both of all fault.

you fucker.

i really hate you.

i hate you for doing this to me.

i hate you for letting me succumb to this state.

this pathetic state.

i cant see shit no more.

i cant feel shit no more.

numbness.

hmm.

okay. thats not exactly the point.

i still want to make my thank you speech.

to 3 special people, who i love so much.

your like family. heh.

your my branches in a way, the branches i use to pull out of my own shit hole.

toby, marcus and adrian.

heh. i was in my own depressed state, went to play dota for awhile but the fucking thing wouldnt budge, so i gave up, then logged out and adrian and marcus were talking to me via msn, they made me laugh alot, consoled me alot too. reminded me of our little silly quarrels about barney and honky, and yeah, after that we decided to make this blog! to commemorate and also for fun. well, at least it gives me something to do to keep my mind off things.

heh. sorry adrian for abandoning you.

and yesh you can come to my house anytime to watch your man u -.-

marcus, thanks for being such a nice brother to me, i love you too.

to toby, thank you for giving me such great advice, for being a listening ear, for showing me empathy and comforting me, trying to udnestand me and all that, though i probably wont even take your advice in.

but yes thank you all the same.

i love you guys. :D

Labels: thank you speech?

[[ Branched ]]*|12:48 PM|

[[ Branched Over Me ]]

Name:Marcus Honky, Adrian Barney, Annabel Aunty! :D
Bdae:6 Nov, 9 Nov, 11 Aug.
Nicks: HONKY, BARNEY, AUNTY -
ONE BIG HAPPY FAMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILY!
Skool: FMSS - BLEH.
Contact: happythreefriends@hotmail.com

[[ SHORT DEDICATIONS. ]]

hmm. we first created this blog to commemorate our friendship
on the 9th august, 2009.
heh.
we love each other very much.
thats why we are happy three friends.
and one big happy family.
:D

[[ SHORT POEEEEEEEEEEEEMS. ]]

My friend is nice.
We like to play
We play together every day.
We laugh and cry
And laugh again
Because, you see, we're
Friends
Friends
Friends!
ONE BIG FAMILY.

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