YAY.
first of all today no piano, first call for YIPEEEEEE.
then after that I went to look for downloading movies, and downloaded obsessed.
and seriously, the sducing scene was so HOT. okay im sounding like a pervert right now.
HAHAHAHA. but whatever. SO DAMN COOL.
second went to je library there to collect my KIMONOOOOO. ITS SO PRETTY.
im gonna wear it for internation frienship day next year.
okay then went plaza sing, BODY SHOP SALE.
MADNESS LA. OMG.
the queue was like..OMG.
so crowded!
BUT AFTER MUCH PUSHING AND PULLING
I GOT WHAT I WANTED.
FOR MRS HO TOO!
ME<3>
okay, then went to bugis eat. SO EXPENSIVE.
but nevermind la hor, i deserve a treat! :D
i shall go and write teacher day letters later.
hmm, right now i should totally get back to watching my show- OBSESSED.
giving you up, was not easy for me. took very long to realise that you were getting on with your life without me. no hint of regret nor sorrow nor missing.hmm..giving you up, would probably be freeing myself from all this..shit and crap.
wow. second time that someone has said to me, "im sorry for bringing you all ths shit to you, sorry for makign you have to suffer." or somehting like that in that context. hmm. i dont get it. what do i have to do to make ppl stop saying this to me. i dont feel weiqu at all. why dont any of you understand that. i dont feel angry/sad/taken adv. of. i really dont. sheesh
givign you up, giving up a part of me also, but maybe it will make me feel more free. and even if we did continue, we wouldnt last. i only went for the thrill. but my heart tells me otherwise. aiya whatever la. fuck. what the hell am i doing. fuck.
anyways. point saying /taken.
im giving up on everything.
gonna really FORGET everything. dont want to think about it.
and maybe 5 years from now ill look back at this and LAUGH.
im waiting for that day.
cant wait for this year to end too.
hmm.
yeah. hurts like shit that you dont bother, to chase me or anything. yah. like you said before, maybe the reason why you cant find yourself devoting yourself to me was.
maybe cause you didnt love me at all. which in this case, i should just suck it up and MOVE ON.
stop wallowing in my own bitchyness, stop causing so much trouble/burden.
AND MOVE ON.
always look forward in life.
and never back.
maybe this was what this is all about.
a lesson to NEVER LOOK BACK.